amigo5 (Que Sea Uno Más)

I see you coming with stories that aren't mine
With half-spoken messages and cold laughter
You say his name as if you feel nothing
But in your eyes there is a war that has not ended well

I listen in silence, pretending not to notice
That when you talk about him, your voice starts to tremble
And even though you're smiling, I know something broke
Because whoever has you no longer looks at you the way I do

And you're asking me to stay here
As if the heart knew how to pretend
As if it were easy to turn off
Everything I keep giving you

Don't ask me to be just another one
That I sit and watch you leave
I wasn't born to watch you from behind
Nor to be the one who is always there
I don't know how to play at losing you like this
To call you and not say yes
If this place is all about friendship
Tell me how to learn to breathe

He writes to you late, he answers you rudely
And yet you still want to save him
I pick up the pieces he drops
But I'm never the one you choose next

You say thank you as if you don't see me
That I'm breaking down again
I am the refuge when everything goes wrong
But never the home you want to reach

And you look at me as if I
Out the error in this equation
But it's not love if it hurts like this
If what I feel for you is always superfluous

Don't ask me to be just another one
That I get used to seeing you doubt
I am not the pause between a goodbye
Nor your heart's plan B
I don't know how to do things halfway
Nor to love you without wanting more
If this role is just about friendship
Tell me how one learns to forget

Maybe someday you'll understand
Why could I never stay here?
Because some hugs kill slowly
When they're not for you

Don't ask me to be friends
When I chose you as my home
I don't know how to live in the invisible
Nor pretend that it doesn't hurt anymore
If you ever lose it
And you no longer know where to go
I don't promise to stay here
Learning not to feel

It's not that I don't want to stay
I just can't lie to myself anymore