Niji (Arcoiris)

Tell me when will I achieve it?
Just repeating my intention is not enough
Even if I hold it in my hands
It disappears like an illusion

Now I understand, everything has been useless and didn't work
Has the me of tomorrow gone far from my sight?
And it was my ideal self

Now I understand, It will end without me having a choice
And I keep spinning in the rain with my disillusion

Since when am I like this I wonder
If I turned my back on this existence like the rainbow
And I can't see myself in my reflection
I will spend my days with loneliness, without realizing
Those lies I once told manage to pierce through me
The place I hate doubles again

Now I understand, all the words I said
Simply made me drown
When I submerged myself in a sea of the dead

Now I understand, there's nothing more to tell you
I will try to fly through this rainbow in the sky

What I truly pursue is that future I once wanted
But I blamed someone else again

Now I understand, everything has been useless and didn't work
Has the me of tomorrow gone far from my sight?
And it was my ideal self

Now I understand, you should have never said goodbye
And my future waits just behind that rainbow