死んでしまいたい、(Shinde Shimaitai)

Even though I want to throw it away, I can't throw it away
Like a pile of garbage
My life, still alive today

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
But I can't die

This, this is the only thing
The pillar of my heart that I believed in
Broken and trampled
Everything is collapsing

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die

I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
I want to die, I want to die
But I can't die

I want to die, I want to die
But I hate pain, I hate suffering
But reality is more painful and suffering
I want to die, but I can't die after all

I don't want to die
But I want to die
I want to live, but I want to escape
I want to be by your side, but my heart hurts so much
I want to die, but I still want to see tomorrow
I want to be held, I want to sleep in that embrace

It's okay not to wake up like this
But I want to see your face
Now I'm taking over, the many contradictions
That is my everything
Surely, my everything