Taquicardia

I know it's my imagination
plus inner fear
t maybe the hangover also influences
or living with people I'd rather not talk about
and if I learned to control
that anger that is the trigger that makes me scream
doesn't let me explode
you move away from me
now everything looks gray
today nothing is the same
any misstep is
another trip to the hospital
it's just suggestion
and each time it's more real
I feel really stupid
for not being able to control it
it forces me to wake up
doesn't let me dream
it truly terrifies me