Blue & Grey (Live)

Where is my angel?
At the end of the day, it's all shadowed
Someone come and save me, please
Just sighs from a tired day
Looks like everyone else is happy
Can you look at me? 'Cause I am blue and grey
The meaning of the tears reflected in the mirror
Is the color of me hidden in laughter, blue and grey

I don’t really know where it all went wrong
Since I was young, I've had a blue question mark in my head
Maybe that’s why I’ve lived so fiercely
But when I look back, I’m just standing here alone
That shadow, dark and looming, swallows me whole
Still, the blue question mark remains
Is it anxiety or depression?
Maybe it’s really just a creature of regret
Or is it me born from loneliness?
I still don’t know, this dark blue
I hope I won’t be consumed, I’ll find the exit

I just wanna be happier
Melt away this cold day
My hand reaching out countless times
An echo without color
Oh, this ground feels so much heavier
I am singing by myself
I just wanna be happier
Is this too much to ask?

When I walk the cold winter streets, I feel
The quickened breath of my heart
I still feel it now
Don’t say it’s okay
'Cause it’s not okay
Please don’t leave me alone, it hurts too much

The path I always walk and the light I always receive
But today, somehow it feels like a strange scene
Am I numb or have I crumbled?
But it’s heavy, this weight of iron
The approaching grey rhinoceros
I stand here, unfocused and alone
This moment isn’t me
I’m just not scared
I don’t believe in some god called certainty
Words like color make me itch
The wide grey area feels comfortable
Here, millions of shades of grey
When it rains, my world
Dances above this city
On clear days, it’s foggy
On wet days, always together
Here, all this dust
Let’s raise a toast for it

I just wanna be happier
Feel the warmth of my hand
It’s not warm enough, so I need you more
Oh, this ground feels so much heavier
I am singing by myself
If one day in the future I smile
I’ll tell you it was like that

As I secretly gather words floating in the air
Now I drift into a dawn sleep, good night