Ayer

Tired of life, dressed in black
My hope, mom, left with the past
I preferred my park over school
Books around here were just for rolling joints

Always getting into trouble, caught in fights
Knew the precinct better than my class
You’ll pay for it all when time goes by
Mom yelled at me, "What the hell are you doing?"

I lived my life on the edge
With blind folks I couldn’t see even with glasses
Already reserving my spot in heaven
Having unprotected sex, scared to go home

Stealing from truckers to buy some clothes
Gaining respect by taking risks
We weren’t tougher just for playing ball
Showing up to my mom with a busted face

In my bones, the jacket felt huge
Just wanted to get laid
We were kids who never flew kites
Playing the bagpipes and smoking my trumpet

No cash to go out, stealing cans
Chugging rum like we were pirates
I’d leave looking sharp, crawling back
What I’d give for a kiss from that girl

Counting stacks and drinking cheap stuff
Not even tasting it while making deals
Damn, I was meant to be a striker
No hair on my balls, smoking tobacco

I stopped scoring goals, preferred beer
So much smarts but not much common sense
Gave up soccer 'cause it bored me
Fuck it, the promise is gone

I don’t want to know anything about others
Not anymore, I don’t want more
I’m gonna look out for myself now
Burned my life so much I’m out of gas
I don’t want to be the kid I was
A "C'est la vie" won’t cut it
I’ll change every second I lived to be happy

I don’t want to know anything about others
Not anymore, I don’t want more
I’m gonna look out for myself now
Burned my life so much I’m out of gas
I don’t want to be the kid I was
A "C'est la vie" won’t cut it
I’ll change every second I lived to be happy

Books, mom, suck it
Dad fought for me to play on the team
He’d shove it in instead of selling drugs
Watching Tony Montana dreaming of being rich

I was a poodle turned hunting dog
No guts, I had the big one
Broke the puzzle and kept a good piece
This burden I carry, cousin, it weighs a ton

Study, son, if you want jewels
Smoking so much, dad, I’m losing my mind
School stuff doesn’t mean shit to me
Thought I was the boss, but I was a fool

The biggest jerk wore the crown
The weed came, and the brains went
They weren’t brothers, friends, not even joking
Arce, come on, don’t mess with me

I don’t have a car, a girl, or a career
I’ve got hell putting up the ladder
If I studied, if I believed
That kid turned into dark circles

Living in fear of not growing old
I’m gonna kill the one who looks at me in the mirror
Thought I was the leader, didn’t want advice
If I listened at home, I’d go far

I didn’t give love, married to the grind
In the shit but thought I was happy
Didn’t understand a thing in this damn movie
Bro, don’t put anything up your nose

The coke from Peru ate my heart
I cared less about family than my crew
Thought I was God but was just the devil
Dad told me, "Whatever happens, you lead"

I don’t want to know anything about others
Not anymore, I don’t want more
I’m gonna look out for myself now
Burned my life so much I’m out of gas
I don’t want to be the kid I was
A "C'est la vie" won’t cut it
I’ll change every second I lived to be happy

I don’t want to know anything about others
Not anymore, I don’t want more
I’m gonna look out for myself now
Burned my life so much I’m out of gas
I don’t want to be the kid I was
A "C'est la vie" won’t cut it
I’ll change every second I lived to be happy

I don’t want to know anything about others
Not anymore, I don’t want more
I’m gonna look out for myself now
Burned my life so much I’m out of gas
I don’t want to be the kid I was
A "C'est la vie" won’t cut it
I’ll change every second I lived to be happy