Degradê

Last Sunday I stopped drinking
I went to the park to try to run
Friday night I skipped going out
To take a break

But this time is passing slowly
I don't know if it takes long to get used to
Every time I try to be a little different
I get lost back

Every now and then this double life
Drives me crazy
And I get confused, like everything I think
If I want and I don't want
I didn't have real advice about adult life
And all I wanted was
To take a break

I am gradient
Mixtures of colors
Mix of who I want to be
I am all flavors at once
I know it must be difficult to
Deal with me
Because I am gradient