Lo Que No Quiero

Pain is unavoidable, unavoidable
You can't live without pain
But how you handle that pain will define how you move toward your purpose

What I want is for you to look me in the eyes
What I don't want is for wanting to feel like a job
What I want is trust without anger
Not phones facing down

What I want is for you to know that I choose you
What I don't want is for you to choose me just for a while
I want my space and my cravings too
What I don't want is to feel like a second choice

And I know that sometimes you don't understand me and I don't understand you either
What I don't want is for you to act like a crazy person
What I want is for us to think of each other
And even if we don't agree, we can give a little

What I want is for us to share everything
What I don't want is to do it any old way
And if you're going to hurt me, at least lower your tone
If my dad didn't yell at me, you shouldn't either

What I want is for you to love me as I was
To admire me like before we were a couple
I can improve just like anyone can
What I don't want is to be who you want me to be

Use the pain, not for revenge, but to rise above
I don't want you to die because you wanted me to die
I don't hate you because you hate me
I don't want you to lose everything, even though you took everything from me

What I want is that if I speak, it's with you
Not with everything others think about us
I care about what my people say too
But if I stay here, others won't decide for me

What I want is transparency and more experiences
What I don't want is obedience and dependence
I want you to love me because I seek excellence
What I don't want is for you to demand it so often

What I want is to smile a little more
What I don't want is for crying to become routine
I've been in that glass prison
And in the end, you start believing that's normal

And the years pass like a hurricane
And no one gives you back the time you left behind
What remains is learning to forgive
Knowing that what you lived through can never happen again

How much we've suffered, my heart
I understand that you don't understand that I love you and say goodbye
I swallowed too much for love
But now I know what I want and what I don't

If I could raise my voice, I want you to win
I'm talking to the people who lied to me, the people who abandoned me
I'm talking to the people who left me after I gave them everything
I'm talking to you, I want you to win
That's how I'll know you're using the pain
Not for revenge, but to turn it into fuel