Cansaço

Again I woke up tired, love, again I am
Patience at the limit of my flight
I know so little what exists, and what I am
And what I have left are crumbs of everything that was left

So don't look at me
Tell me if it's that easy to hurt me like that
Naked from myself, naked from the world
Unprotected from everyone
Ask me if it hurts and I say yes

I'm so hurt to the point of living
And at the same time happy to have to be here
And I know I have so much to forget
But the pains of my past won't let me lie

Is it me or the changes?
The thousands of reasons that lead to revenge
Why stop my mind from going where it reaches?
And what's tiring, why is everything unfair? I was just a child

It tires me so much to see the beautiful, empty nights
I see how much and how many parts of her I carried
Is it natural to talk or natural to swear?
That I live in barriers that I can't break

How to show affection if I don't have it in me
How to live in love with such an insecure self
How to make the roses in my garden bloom?
These are normal problems because I don't apologize

How to show affection if I don't have it in me
How to live in love with such an insecure self
How to make the roses in my garden bloom?
These are normal problems because I don't apologize

I haven't talked for so long, I haven't vented
I'm drowning in verse, rap and bars
Steps that take me to the opposite of what I do
I don't give disappointments, I just pass them on

So young and carrying the world
I have so much stuff, I don't want to take care of it all
I'm so small compared to the size of the world, time is so short
Life passes by like a breath, I don't want to waste a second

So am I really that bad?
Or did I never want to give myself up?
So does the trauma live inside me?
Or is it that I don't know how to take care of myself?

So am I really that bad?
Or I didn't know how to see
Even though I'm so bad
I never meant to get hurt

Again I woke up tired, love
I'm here again, patience at the limit of my flight
I know so little what exists and what I am
And what I have left are crumbs of everything that was left

So don't look at me
Tell me if it's that easy to hurt me like that
Naked from myself, naked from the world
Unprotected from the whole world
Ask me if it hurts and I say yes