Do You Feel Real

Sevdaliza's song 'Do You Feel Real' delves into the complex and often tumultuous relationship between the self and internal anxieties. The lyrics open with a confrontation of an ever-present anxiety that the narrator thought they had silenced. This anxiety is personified, making it a tangible entity that the narrator interacts with, highlighting the struggle of dealing with persistent mental health issues. The metaphor of the gate and the prison suggests a cyclical trap where the narrator feels both the captor and the captive of their own mind.

The song continues to explore the narrator's fear of forgetting this anxiety, indicating a deep-seated dependency on it, despite its negative impact. This paradoxical relationship is further emphasized by the line 'I just can't remember how it feels like to function without,' suggesting that the anxiety has become an integral part of the narrator's identity. The imagery of 'total free fall' conveys a sense of losing control, while the dismissive 'It's a waste of time, It's not that serious' reflects a coping mechanism of downplaying the severity of their struggles.

In the latter part of the song, Sevdaliza introduces a scene in a yoga class, where guilt and self-realization come to the forefront. The narrator's guilt is exacerbated by the teacher's suggestion that frequent attendance is necessary to resolve their issues, which leads to a moment of introspection. The realization 'I am the problem' signifies a profound acknowledgment of self-responsibility and the existential question of their purpose in the world. This line encapsulates the essence of the song, questioning the narrator's role and existence in relation to their internal battles.