Pray

Jessie Murph's song 'Pray' delves into the complex and often painful nature of love and personal struggles. The lyrics reveal a journey through emotional highs and lows, where love is both a blessing and a curse. Murph begins by reflecting on her initial desire for love, only to find that it brought unexpected challenges and heartache. The line 'I've never been golden but I swear that I showed it' suggests a sense of inadequacy and the effort to meet an ideal that feels unattainable. The cyclical nature of the relationship is highlighted with 'We're going up, we going down,' indicating a tumultuous and unstable connection.

The chorus, 'Waking up but wishing that you don't,' captures a deep sense of despair and a longing for escape from the emotional turmoil. This sentiment is further emphasized by the repeated prayer that the listener never experiences such pain. The song also touches on themes of self-medication and coping mechanisms, as seen in the lines 'Up all night, drinking liquor like it's water' and 'I need some medicine, this shit that my head is in.' These lyrics suggest a struggle with mental health and the use of substances to numb the pain.

Murph's personal background adds another layer to the song's meaning. The mention of her father and the impact of his absence hints at unresolved issues and a search for identity. 'Waking up, knowing I'm somebody's daughter, but I don't know a lot about my father' speaks to a sense of loss and confusion. The song ultimately portrays a raw and honest depiction of the complexities of love, personal demons, and the hope that others may be spared from similar suffering.