I Don't Know Why

AVAION's song 'I Don't Know Why' delves into the complex emotions surrounding self-deception and the struggle to be honest with oneself and others. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person engulfed in a metaphorical smoke, which symbolizes the confusion and emotional turmoil that clouds their judgment. This smoke covers up feelings of inadequacy and the creeping sense that they are 'not enough.' The repetition of the phrase 'I lie, lie, lie' underscores the internal conflict and the difficulty in confronting the truth.

The song's chorus, with its haunting repetition of 'I don't know why,' highlights the protagonist's bewilderment and frustration with their own behavior. Despite knowing that honesty is supposed to be liberating ('They say the truth will set you free'), the protagonist finds it incredibly draining ('honestly it takes it outta me'). This paradox captures the essence of the human condition, where the fear of vulnerability often leads to self-sabotage and emotional isolation.

In the second verse, the protagonist admits to putting on a facade of being okay, even as they 'fade into gray.' This imagery suggests a gradual loss of vitality and authenticity, as the weight of their lies takes a toll on their mental and emotional well-being. The fear of showing their true self and the potential consequences ('I'd burn, the bridges between our hearts') further complicates their struggle. The song poignantly captures the tension between the desire for connection and the fear of rejection, making it a relatable anthem for anyone grappling with similar feelings.